Almost 4am

I feel as though I am stuck in a bad dream, a very horrible nightmare.
I layed down on the bed next to Evan to try and get some rest at about
2am. This was after hearing the results of the 1am xray of "no changes
or free air found in the abdomen" which means they would continue to
treat him medically without surgical intervention at this point. The
earlier imaging study showed no vulvulous but could not rule out
malformation which can cause a critical vulvulous at anytime. The goal
now is to keep him stable and will redo the exam later to determine if
he has malformation or not.

At about 3am I awoke to the RN calling for Dr. V (ped intensivist dr)
for help. Evan had choked on some vomit which caused his heart rate to
drop. They asked me to step outside as they needed the space to put
him on a ventilator. This was very hard for me to do and I only wish
that I had Ben here to hold me through this. I am so thankful that he
is strong enough to be at home taking care of Payton, Riley and Brody
though.

They just repeated the abdomen xr series and his intestines are still
stable but a chest xr does show some fluid in his right lung so they
will keep him medicated and allow the vent to work for him while he
has some time to rest and heal.

Evan is a strong big brother to P and R and I know he will amaze us
all and pull through illness.

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